I'm still working on my lists and stuff.  I'd like to add some fun movie things, mostly for myself, but also for anyone else who is interested.

I know it's been awhile, but life, as you know, keeps getting in the way. Being 29, I think, has it's own set of problems. Though I haven't really decided if I want to have children or when, I can distinctly feel that 35 deadline, when the amnio is required. I guess I need to talk to more women who have given birth over the age of 35, cause the whole thing seems very scary. I bring this up because I'm in a sort of holding pattern with my boyfriend as we both try to figure out if we can trust this relationship to last and not slap us in the face.

Another thing that I have been dealing with is his possible recall to active duty in the Army. He is fighting it, he wrote a letter to the Army asking for an exemption or at least a delay while he finishes school.  Now, I don't want you to think that he is chickening out or anything, this guy's resume includes "raids, ambushes, jumping out of airplanes and shooting people in the face" which is a direct quote. There are things that he legally can't tell me and plenty of things that I really don't want to know, like digging up dead bodies with his bare hands. He's worked really hard just to be a normal person again, we just have to wait and see if what he has already sacrificed is enough. His caseworker told him that the committee should have a decision in 1 to 2 months.
When he first found out about the recall, there was a moment of panic as I had to very quickly decide how important this relationship is to me, I decided to keep going forward and I told him that I had to finish school first, but after that, I would follow him, if that was necessary. I think he was more relieved that I wasn't ready to dump his ass at the first sign of trouble (which doesn't say much about the women he has previously had realationships with).

Which brings me to my next big worry, graduating from college. I'm still not sure what I want my future to look like. I learned the hard way in a previous realtionship that all the well laid plans for the future you have made with another person in them doesn't keep them from walking away. But at the same time, I don't want to make all the these solo plans that don't make room for someone else to stand by my side. It's finding the happy medium that I'm having trouble with. I have to figure out something by the fall so that I can start applying for jobs. Oh well, something to think on. I've gone on for a while now and need to move on to cheerier things, bye for now.